Retoric situations

On the very first day of class Ms. Jarmer gave us a writing prompt, “TV’s Negative Influence on Kids Reaffirmed” by Jeffrey M. McCall,”  that she called a diagnostics essay. My first thought was an essay already! I am not a very good writer, so this scared me alot. I read the prompt and kept thinking how am I going to do this. I left it alone for a little bit, then picked it back up and the end of the night read it again. I still couldnt decifer what the thesis was or where to begin. I went to bed hoping it would clear my thoughts some. Again, reading it the next day I started to figure out what I was supposed to do. I started to write a little bit here and a little there, hoping things would come together. After an attempt to write the summary, which seemed like it took a long time. I was struggling to voice my opinion, not because im a shy person but, because im always on the fence. I dont like opinionated writing for that fact alone; I always see it both sides of the arguement. Since the promt talked about the negatitive, I decided to tackle the positive. I waited until late the night before to try and finsh my essay and stuggling to get want I needed across, I fell short of 400 words by 20 words. the next day at DACC I went to the computer lab to type my essay. I reread every word trying to see if I could add anymore to it, unfortunately I couldn't I felt accomplished getting the essay done on time. I turned my essay in thinking, "I hope this is good enough, hopefully I can stay in this class." the whole situation scared me; I wasnt sure what to think. Did I under estimate myself? Did I do horrible? Can I survive this class? These thoughts/questions were clouding my head over the next couple of days, while I franticly move around in my seat waiting for her to hand back the essays. As class began I started to worry if this was the right class for me, would she suggest a lower class, hopefully i did well enough.